Guerdie V Dorelien

Prof: Cindy

ENG:101   

4/2/18

      Investigators should have to pay for their mistake, so that innocent persecutors can have justice.

When I started to read trial by fire, according to Willingham’s reaction during the fire, I assume that Willingham was guilty, he wanted to kill his three children. I was asking why he had the refrigerator block the door, why he didn’t call 911 right away? And he should put more action to get the neighborhood attention when he got outside the door.  By continue to read I realize that I will be so wrong to assume something like that as the parent, and also according to what the new invasgators investigate in Willingham case in December2004 2 years after he had been persecuted.

             When I’m reading about Willingham back grown I believe that it was possible for him to set up the fire. Because he was an abandoned child, rose up with a step parent something most kids don’t like, whatever what the step parents could do to make them happy they will never happy, I’m one of them I was living with my step mother for years and I wasn’t happy for the whole time. I always wanted to be with my mother. I feel like Willingham was neglect by his parents if not he would have a better education and a better attention to prevent him from stealing and going to jail. And unlucky him he married someone who had almost the same life’s story, I feel like if those three babies didn’t die from the fire they would be suffer somehow in life according to their parent’s relationship in the house. because Stacy used to get beaten up during her pregnancy. A lot of people are sick with anger, sometimes they grow up with that anger and never change even they become parents. For some parents because they were abuse or neglect in their childhood, they don’t care about other people’s live even their own children they still have that anger against them.

                 Even though Willingham was not guilty in his children’s death I feel the refrigerator should be never place behind the door. Did he place it behind the door to block the helpers from getting inside of the easily? So he may think that refrigerators are very heavy if he has it behind the door, it may require a lot times, by the time to remove the refrigerator on the way the children could die. Or maybe the refrigerator was behind the door already this is where it belongs to? No one knows.

               I understand the technology is more advance now than how he was before, but there is so many ways Willingham could do to save those children lives if he didn’t have a cell phone. I’m pretty sure he had a home in the house. Back days most people didn’t have a cell phone but they had a home phone. The same way he could see his way to get out of the house, he should be able to see his way also to those children’s room to rescue them, especially if they all were in the same room. Why he couldn’t save them, at least one of them should rescued if he couldn’t carry all three of them at the same. If he really loved his children, his wife, even If he didn’t get executed, regrettable should pushed him to kill himself after a such situation. How will he feel about saving his lives and let those kids died?

                 When Willingham got out the door, why did he just stand crying “my babies, my babies” and without taking any action to get more attention from the neighborhoods? If he could wait until the house get enflamed so badly, for that eleven-year-old girl to see from two houses down; that’s mean he wanted to kill those babies. The same way the mother of that eleven year- old could come and broke one the children’s room window, he could do it. Or maybe he was too dummy to think about to do something, I understand that some men are so needy and very dependent. When they married, they leave everything on their wife, the way they count on their wives, they become dummy without realized it. May be Willingham acted that way not because he wanted to kill his children maybe he didn’t know what to do at the moment, not everyone is a fast responder to dangerous as he mentioned to his parents before he died he’s a coward.

             I realize I was wrong to assume that Willingham wanted to kill his children by his reaction to the scene during the fire like the investigators and some neighborhoods believed. According to his words, I believe that he was innocent. Even though everybody has the defensive words to defend themselves face to a situation; I believe that he was innocent especially when he said “people who have never been in a fire don’t understand why those who survive often can’t rescue the victims.” After saying that he really touches my conscious and make me think in a different way, I feel like what he said was true sometimes it is easy for some people to see their reactions through other people’ situation.  plus according to 2004 and 2005 reports that they had no scientific basis for claiming that the fire was arson. To me, those investigators wasn’t 100% sure that Willingham was the one set the fire. Even though he could be the one according to fact they had, but it wasn’t 100% sure.

                In conclusion, I think it was wrong back days to have a terrible sentence like execution for a criminal. Without a good way like in advance technology to ensure that the criminals are really deserve a such a sentence. It was very important for those detectors to not go only with the basics fact they had and the witnesses’ ideas to condemned someone, because someone may don’t like other people and give the wrong information about that person. Because of so many lives’ detectors cause innocently I feel like they should have a kind of penalty against those investigators and judges’ after condemned an innocent.

          

 

Guerdie Dorelien

Professor: Michlin

ENG 101

Mar 02 2016

                                                          Birthday Times

A lot of people don’t celebrate birthday. For some people it’s because of religious some of them don’t’ even know the date they were born, and some people don’t care they considered birthday date as a regular date of the year. But for Guerdie, birthday always excited even more excited each year in March 19r. Since 2011 as Guerdie’s became an adult, every year Guerdie has to make something different in this date March 19. It could be a vacation, a movie, a restaurant or a house party.

      In March 19 2011, Guerdie’s went to a movie with a friend that was a very funny moment and sad at the same time. It was funny because the movie was a funny movie, Guerdie had enjoyed that time in the movie theater, but the sadness time was waited at home after the movie.

      As Guerdie went to the movie without nobody’s permission, all the great joys Guerdie’s had for the birthday and from the movie arriving home everything joy had gone, by Guerdie’s father Ryste. Its true Ryste didn’t know about Guerdie’s would go to the movie, but it would make no different if Ryste knew about it. Because Ryste doesn’t like when Guerdie’s going out with unless with a family member and if it really with a family member, Ryste got a make sure that to have a conversation to the family member before Guerdie could go anyplace. That night, Ryste was out to work and Guerdie went to the movie without alerted Ryste and with no family member that was with a friend. As Guerdie knew the time Ryste always back home from work ,Guerdie thought that Guerdie’s would be back home from the movie before Ryste got home and that was wrong thought. Because the movie was longer than what Guerdie’s expected.

      Here Ryste got back from work around 10:30 pm and walked straight to Guerdie’s bedroom to say hi to the birthday girl and the birthday girl was out. Ryste didn’t do nothing than stood by the window in the living room waited on the birthday girl to come and the birth girl didn’t get home until 11: 30 pm. When  Guerdie’s got out of the car and saw Ryste car in the parking garage, in Guerdie’s mind that was okay because all the light was tuned off in the house, it was okay if Ryste’s home  and might might be fell as sleep already

 

 

 

Guerdie Dorelien

Professor: Michlin

ENG 101

Feb 08 2016

                                                Lived In the United States with My Father

A lot of people who are from other countries always have a desire to come to the United States even for a quick visit. I have always wanted to come to the United States because of the good comments I have heard from other people who used to come to visit United States. But I knew I would have to come one day because of my father who was leaving in the United States.

      When I was a baby I didn’t grow with my father, I was with my mother and my grandmother .My used to come to see, took care of me spent money for did everything but he couldn’t leave in the house  with my mother because he was already married to another woman.

      When I was seven years old, my father decided to separate me from my grandmother and my mother to come to live with him at his house, unfortunately that was only for one year because my father had to move to the United State to live with his wife who had already moved to the United State before I was born.

      My father moved to the United States he left me with brothers and sisters in Haiti. He only came to visit me once a year, because of that reason my father and I didn’t have no time to get to know each other very well. The only thing I could observe on his character traits: he was a very talkative person. I realized that before I moved to the United States by talking to him on the phone I could see his reactions how he talked a lot for any little thing. That didn’t affect my feeling  I had still have the desire  to come to live with him because he was the only one who could have me came to the United States to see those big New City’s buildings I used to watch on TV.

      Here come the time for me to move to the United States in March thirty 1^st 2010 to live with my father Ryste, who is a real Christian in Catholic Church. The same day I came to the United States it was on Easter weekend. My father took me to church to meet the Priest and some of his friend at church. That weekend my father thanked God on his prayer for that blessed Easter we passed together because we had never had a chance to be together in a big moment like that for the past 11 years.

      Came in to the United States was also a great time for my father and I to get to know each other and to more focus on each other’s behavior to see what was good and what was needed to be change. A lot of good things was appeared, but we both had our weak side.

      I stayed over to my father’s house for four years, at age 24 I decided it was time for me to have my independence I moved to my own apartment. It was so hard him he even got sick because and depressed but it was better for me to leave than staying in the house. I know that wasn’t his intentions to see me leave the house before I got married but I had to.

      What I love with my father is a very responsible Father, caring, patient and loves he had for his children. He has five children two men and three women and I’m the youngest, for this reason I get more attention, more love more care even more control. Even though I was not in his house  he still supported me he always had his car ready for me when I needed it , he paid for my car repaired  when he comes to my house always checked at my refrigerator to see what I missed and bring some shopping in the house. My father knows I liked banana, cereal and green vegetables because I’m sick with anemia he brought them.

      Sometimes I felt like my father did too much for me, but he always said to me “I know you are not a healthy a person you need to take care of yourself, when you were next to me I didn’t have to worry about those things because I knew how you used to eat, to sleep and to wake up in the morning, now you are not in my house no more I got a make sure you have everything you need”

     In one word nobody can’t play my father’s role in my life and wherever I can be from him I will always remember his loves, his supports and his efforts to push me to success. One thing he likes to do compare me with my brothers and my sisters he always said “if your brothers and your sisters came in to the United States in their twenties almost thirties and they became engineer, social worker, nurse and business so you came younger and you even smarter you can do better; I want to see you do something have a profession in your life before I died”.

      According to all my father and I been through together since we were in Haiti including in the United States I always feel so proud to have him as my father and I can wait to welcome him at my house when he gets older so I can take care of him how he used to take care of me.

 

     

 

At seven years old my father decided to take me to live with him in the Capital of Haiti. Full of regrets, I left my grandmother with my mother out from the Capital in Cornillon a place in province. And I moved to my father's house in Port-au Prince Capital of Haiti. Arriving to his house in the capital, we had a nice life together. As a man he took care of me very well. He fed me, showered me, took me to school every morning and every afternoon when he was home If he would not home for a day he make sure somebody else would do it. He thought I was too little to do these things by myself because in Haiti it is not like in America you have school bus available for you, in Haiti student don’t have this opportunity unless your parents hire someone privately for you or you go by public transportations. Generally he used to do everything for me. What I liked the most was when he took me out  every evening around 6 to 8 pm after I finished my homework my study he took to buy some hot tea and (fritay) what we call fast-food in the United States but we do it in a different way in Haiti.  In Haiti what call fast food it like fried pork, fried hot dogs, fried potatoes, fried plantains etc. what’s make it more funn it’s like the way they sell like they sit around the street  in a nice weather as you know it always summer time in Haiti. Sitting outside around the street or in your back yard with your family and friends with  a nice plate of fritay  it very fun it even more fun  around the street at night once you stay nice and quiet you make any drama you can have high music everybody enjoyed it  police officers won’t get no phone calls from neighborhood to complaint about your nosy nothing.

At the end of the year in June 1999 my father moved to the United States to live with my step mother. I stayed with my brothers and sisters. Since that time my life started to change, I had to wash my own clothes, nobody took me in and out from school no more, even a good grade I couldn't make in school no more, because I had nobody to look over me nobody cares if I studied or did my homework nothing. The only thing I didn’t do was cooking my own meals, but at age 13 I started to cook for myself. Everything had changed. I started to think about When he was in the house how he used to help me, with my studies; once he left I didn't have anybody to help me. When I got home from school if I studied my lessons and did my homework I did it, but nobody cared. Perhaps when he was there everybody always make sure I did well, because of his presence they pretended to be care. When I realize I was the one who was responsible for my own care like that even I wasn’t able to, I started  to asked, why did my Father take me away from my Grandmother and my mother ? If I was still living with them, I would not be in this situation…….to finish… Two years later, for summer vacation I went back to see my grandmother. She was very excited to see me. We had fun and everybody was happy. What made me more Happy was when she called all her grandchildren and grouped us together with our parents and we took a trip to a river half an hour from our house?

 We had a lot of fun we ate a lot of grilled fish and we drank a lot of coconut water. I really enjoyed my whole month with them. Then I came back in the Capital to continue with my school. I couldn't leave them especially my grandmother but I had to leave because I couldn't stay any longer.

In 2005, I was far away from my mother's family. The communications were not like it is now, at that time most of the people had no cell phone or a home phone in their house, so it was hard for us to communicate with each other.

 One day I decided to visit my mother's cousin, she was the closest of my mother's family member in the capital. When I got to her house, she asked me: "did you hear from your mother?" No, why? I replied. She said to me: "your grandmother had passed away two weeks ago", that was on Thursday. I was so quiet and I couldn't say anything just the way she sounded to me made me cry and she was crying also. Right after, I made my way back to my house without saying anything. But in my mind I knew "it was impossible for my grandmother to die, and my mother would not say anything to me. No, No, No, it was impossible because she knew how close we were together."

 A month later I realized that was really true and the funeral was already over. At that time there were no morgues in the city, and the body could not have stayed for more than two days in the house. I was worried, and asked; why did my mother do that to me? Because my grandmother was sick for a few months before she passed away, and my mother never told me about it.

 

I didn't know why - probably she thought I was too young; my presence would not mean a lot, or maybe she was afraid of my father? I don't know. Because when my father took me away from my grandmother and my mother he didn't want me to go back to see them.

  Three years after her death, I visited them my pain and my worries were getting worse; then I heard from my uncle that my grandmother last words within her last breath: were: “would you let me go without seeing my daughter Didine"? She said to my mother. She used to call me Didine.

 

  I finally realized everybody has a time to live is life and when it's time to go when God wants you or call you nobody can't stop it. This is a way to say I can forget her death but forget her last words that's will never happen.

I was a teenager my favorite day of the week was Friday. I had school Monday to Friday, after a long five days of school I could never wait for Friday to come. I counted Friday after school as my day off, it's like when you have a job and you can't wait for your day off to come. Usually on Friday after school, I had nothing to worry about. Tomorrow had never depend on me. I just had to think about what kind of game I would have to play with my friends or how long I would have to stay in bed from Friday night to a late Saturday morning, because I had no responsibility ....nothing. After my long sleep I only had to study, do my homework and played different games around with my friends like hopscotch, jump rope and cards. Jump rope Hopscotch, jump rope and cards were my favorite games. I enjoyed my weekend watching all the TV shows and got ready for the next week of school. Now everything is completely different. Before I had no responsibility including no bills. I couldn't imagine  how much I used to cost my parents a year .Now  while I'm in the reality, I  realize how hard that was for my parents. I remember I used to be lazy to get up in the morning when I had to go to school. Sometime I lied to my parents and told them that I was sick, I felt fever, or had stomach ache. I everything I knew that could make them believe me to not sent me to school. Now things have changed; everything is different. My responsibilities are too much for me, my bills, my plans, and my future. Now they all depend on me, not on somebody else. I used to depend on my parents, now it's the opposite. It's their time now for them to depend on me especially my mother. I’m her only one child in America and the only one who has a job. I have seven brothers and sisters in Haiti plus my mother. They all depend on me. I have to work hard to support them and myself too Like I said when I was a teenager I used to lie to my parents so I could stay in bed when I didn't want to go to school. Now Sometimes I'm sick and I really need to stay in bed, but I think of  my bills and  responsibilities and I can't; I have to leave bed and go to work. Before I just had to worry about getting up in the morning and going to school, but now it's different. I have to worry about going to work. I wasn't sick and I wanted to be sick to stay at home, but now even if I'm sick I still have to get up early and go to work.You never know what's going to be happen in your life. I used to have my time to enjoy, play around with my friends. Now sometime I don't even have time to take a rest when my body gets tired. Always remember that nothing is permanent, things can change at anytime.

Guerdie Dorelien

English 094

Professor: Sulzycki

12/09/15

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

               Breast Cancer Disease

 

When I was younger, I used to understand things differently. I thought the most common diseases or most of the terrible diseases like cancer were genetic. I didn’t think like anyone can get sick or affected from anyone of this disease at any time, I even thought getting sick or affected from anyone of this disease wasn’t a big deal because there is doctor around with money you can get cured at any time. That was my thoughts. Now realized how I was completely wrong, because you might have money, and you died without treated. To depend on what kind of disease and how bad is your diagnostic.

              Like today, Cancer is very frequent in America not only in America, but in the whole word. And in different part though your body, I never knew about all that kind of cancer I’m hearing now. I was very surprise to hear even about eyes cancer, and lips cancer. For The type of cancer I heard about now, I’m asking if doctors or scientist can’t stop cancers from spreading around. Is true cancer’s not a contagious disease, but I’m telling you based on the amount of people who has cancer in this world and it reaction on the human body, it seems like cancer is more powerful than some contagious disease. Because most of the contagious disease will not kill you once you give yourself the minimum care required by going to your doctor appointment, take your medicine, and follow the doctor’s instructions, But to get survive from cancer even if you follow the doctor instructions you have to be very lucky to survive with the all kind of cancers especially breast Cancer I know a lot of people who died with breast cancer.

I used to see a lot of people with one breast or some of them have no breast at all I couldn’t imagine why all this people missing their breast until I found out all happened because of breast cancer.

         And what is breast cancer mean? Based on (breast cancer.com) they definite breast cancer as an uncontrolled growth cells. And some of them say breast cancer is a cancer that develops from breast tissue. When I go farther, to definite cancer itself, is a disease that occurs when cells in the body begins to divide at a faster rate than the body requires. Cancer also known as a malignant tumor or malignant neoplasm is a group of diseases involving abnormal cell grow with the potential to invade or spread to other part of the body.

 Breast cancer. According to the American society, 226,870 new cases of invasive breast cancer where expected to occur during 2012 in the U.S. And between the 10 most common cancer like:

Skin cancer

Lung cancer

Prostate cancer

Breast cancer

Colorectal cancer

Kidney renal cancer

Bladder cancer

Non- Hodgkin’s Lymphoma cancer

Thyroid cancer

Endometrial cancer

These are the most common forms of cancer for men and women. Among these you can see like breast cancer is on the fourth position, and breast cancer most frequently diagnosed among women. Breast cancer also the second leading cause of cancer death in women. My question is why breast cancer it most among the women body? What make it develop most to women?  A few weeks ago, I read a newspaper about breast cancer, they say breast cancer also causing by some antiperspirants products, if that really true why breast cancer it mostly among women? Because most of the men and women products are pretty much the same maybe the smell is different.  

       The statistics of American cancer society for 2015 reevaluate that three million women are living with breast cancer, and one –third of them don’t even know it.

According to American cancer society one- third of women have breast cancer and they don’t know about it. My questions are:  what can they do about it? How health department can save more people’ live? Because most of the time people get victim from breast cancer or any kind of cancer even lose their live, it because of unknown cancers.

 For me among all the definition scientist give to cancer I definite cancer as a

(Cunning disease) because the  cancer virus might here in your body you don’t know it, you don’t feel it until it almost finish with one of your organ about to attack more of them before you discover it you might die without discover cancer in your body if you are not a lucky one. There’s a lady from my church she had colon cancer, lymph, and liver cancer she didn’t know about them she was living with all these cancers until she got a car accident a few months ago, shad to do an (MIR) so they  were able to discover all these cancers. Can you imagine she was living with all these cancer in her body and she didn’t know about them, by that she could be die without knowing. I think the way health department goes to evaluate people’s health I don’t think is in the appropriate way especially for some testing. Like why do people have to be in a certain age to get testing for some diseases? Yet, for some diseases you don’t need to be old to attack you. Why do health department goes (OSHA) with ages or genetic to testing people for certain diseases? Why they don’t go with the consequences of unknown diseases. For example breast cancer according to women health center, women should get a mammogram at age 39 to 40s because screening mammograms can detect breast abnormalities early in women in their 40s.” (Avon39.org)  I think if health department (OSHA) are really care for people’s live, they should allow women to test earlier than their 40s. Because diseases don’t have an age to attack people especially now with this environment with the pollution. They even have more reasons to not wait for a certain age for testing women earlier against breast cancer. According to Dr Mercola “new research examining parabens found in cancerous human breast tissue points the finger at antiperspirant and other cosmetics for increasing your risk of breast cancer so does aluminum and alum.”

In this point after discovering some of the sources what measure do (OSHA) takes to avoid more people affected? How can health ministry stop selling those products on the market? If the researches are true?

          As a nursing assistant I been working with a lot of patient who is suffering with breast cancer.  Some of them just have one breast some of them don’t have none.  When I explain to them about some products that cause breast cancer like antiperspirant deodorant, most of them don’t believe that because they very old and they didn’t have those products frequently on the market like today, and they  didn’t know any member of their family die with breast cancer. They even tell me how they used to make their own deodorant by using corn starch and bicarbonate, but they still have breast cancer. I don’t say Dr Mercola research is not true, but I don’t blame those elderly also because if you go back to years before not everybody used to use these products, and those products wasn’t that popular. They also say some bra are causes, I think breast cancer it dominate scientist more than they can get a solution, because they keep coming with more source and causes than coming with some solutions.

     In conclusion because of all these confusions about breast cancer s and affect I will suggest women health center to provide mammogram test to women younger than 40s at least women should start at age 18 to 20s. I completely understand that the mammogram machine it more clearly to detect the cancer virus in 40s women because of all these death that breast cancer causing I will suggest them to be more creative so they can create more materials to check breast cancer in early age. Because when somebody get sick it’s not only affected the person who is sick but the all family especially when a young person die because of negligent. 

Guerdie Dorelien

 Reflective Cover letter

 

As I been studding and writing English for five years. There is a big different from

wen I just move to United States and now. The first year I move to the United

States in 2010, I couldn’t speak or write English at all for my first two months.

 Everytime I listened to people during a long conversation or assisted them

writing a long paper like a journal, I asked to myself; “do I would be able to that

one day”? And when that’s going to be? Here the day comes. For my five years,

where I’m able to open any conversation with anybody, I don’t feel embarrass no

more when people’s talking to me. I even able to talk about my life such as: my writing skills, my family, and my career.

I’m choosing to share my first essay which is: how I can describe myself as a writer? The

Way I always feel comfortable to write a piece of paper about my life or something when I have to, I

always feel more comfortable to share my writing  with others. Before I didn’t like to write not only in

English, but I didn’t want to do it at all. After I get my writing skills, learn how to write, know how to get

 people’s attention in my writing I feel like it always a pleasure for me to share my writing with others.

My second essay it about my relation with father: It always a pleasure for me to talk about my

Father all the times and to anyone, because he deserve it .By reading my second essay you will see

what kind of father I have. Is it true people know more about my love for him than he knows,

because the more I tell people how much I love him I always choose to write about him because

there’s a proverb says: the words gone, but the writing stay. One day he will know more how his sacriffice was counted for me.

My third and final essay, it about my career. It’s to share with you the feeling that I have about

having a career and why it is important to have a career in your life. And also to tell people to

not give up their goal for just a job. Some people think when they have a job, they making

money that’s all they need. Nope, this not true. You will see the difference and the consequence

after you lose that job. Knowledge it’s knowledge when you go to school your learn something you get

your Diploma or a bachelor degree it something different. You got more respect and you feel more comfortable in this society.

Finally I realized it’s very nice to have writing as part of your habit. By writing you keep your

mind busy in action which is can help you with your intelligence and also can prevent you from

some mental diseases. I like writing and I can guarantee myself I will be a better writer in the

 future not only to write some paper but some books